Over this month, I feel like have learned a lot about myself and planning a wedding and how I deal with it. Everything snowballed very quickly and just like that, everything is on hold. I thought I dealt with stress well but this time I've learned I don't.
Some how we thought doing home reno's before the wedding was a good idea. It has become more costly than we thought and a lot of extra stress. We ended up doing a garage reno. We had many issues lots of stress and we went about $4000 over the quote. Between the "missing insulation" in the roof to the asbestos issue, I lost a lot of sleep over this. So we pulled some money from our wedding funds and decided we would repay it at J's bonus time …
Well, we found out last week, bonus time may not happen this year. J is facing major lay off's at his work. When I say major, I mean 1 in every 5 workers are loosing their jobs and they are cutting back 20% of the work force. They just did round one, all of J's team was all laid off. All 8 people on both the USA and Canadian side. No one can tell him if he is safe or not. All they say is "while that was round 1 and you are still here"… but he over heard HR talking that they can hire a service provider to do their jobs/team for 1/4 of the price. Needless to say there is lots of extra stress about this alone not about the remainder of the wedding expenses and trying to figure all that with less than 5 months to everything needing to be paid. For now we are on hold with everything…. until we know his fate.
On top of that we are 5 months and 2 weeks out to the wedding date…. and I wish it was over.
My cousin had her wedding the 16th. It was a good wedding. Besides my grandmother, who went around and told our family members that I never invited her to my wedding. We had a full on conversion about it and she bluntly said "ha, I am not flying there for that, you should just have it here like most people, no one will go to your wedding because you aren't having it here at home"… *sigh* I told her I wasn't sending out invites until xmas time and she would still be getting one. She has time to think about it.
Oh and just because, my dog is sick. They think she has Addison's Disease…. bah…
I normally never stress about anything nor have anxiety and it has been popping up over the last 2-3 weeks. People always warned me, something will slow down planning or go wrong, just go with it… Ugh!