Ever feel like you just can't win?
Background: I have one MOH, my older sister, who lives about 3 hours away from me. I have two bridesmaids- BM1 is my "current best friend", a person I see at least weekly and text often. Out of anyone in my life now, BM1 knows me best. BM2 is my "lifelong best friend", someone I've known since we were two. BM2 lives a few states a way and literally just gave birth to her second child.
I didn't want a big wedding. I would have been happier eloping, but compromised on a wedding with 80 guests. I'm a reluctant planner and chose a venue with an all-inclusive option to cut down on the amount of "stuff" I have to do. Further background is that my sister and I were never close; we just don't communicate well. Never have, never will, unfortunately.
So here's the issue. The wedding is about 9 months away now and over the holiday, my mom said she and my sister were talking about dresses. My mom relayed to my sister that I simply want the three ladies to wear black cocktail dresses. Now then, a few months back I wrote ONE e-mail to the ladies with some style ideas (A-line, chiffon perhaps)-- BM1 said "whatever you want!" and BM2 replied with a bunch of questions about fit and tailoring and how late could she buy a dress as she wanted to lose baby weight. No problem! Totally understand. MOH I don't remember responding at all.
So, since my sister asked my mom (not me!) about dresses, I wrote a second group e-mail today with a few other details like ideal time for bachelorette party (I'll be finishing a masters right before the wedding so there is a limited amount of dates to reasonably plan something). I said, "pick a fabulous black cocktail dress. If you're happy, I'm happy."
My sister sent me such a bitchy reply about how we should all go shopping because you might have different blacks and given the classy venue, I certainly don't want the photos to come out with the bridal party looking cheap.
Um.... thanks? I replied that I trusted everyone's style and ability to purchase an appropriate black dress! This escalated further, but I won't bore you.
So, what the hell? It's not really logistically possible to have a group shopping trip. If I "dictate" what they wear, they won't be happy. If I don't dictate what they wear, they're nervous they won't be coordinated. I truly don't care about them coordinating. I just don't! Part of my vent here is that I can't win- two e-mails about bridesmaid dresses, both with negative responses. Why can't anyone just say, "Cool! It looked like from your other e-mail you preferred something soft over something shiny, you still thinking that?" The other part of my vent is that my sister/MOH lacks tact.
Further to this, my mom and FMIL want to plan a shower, to which I said no. So then they wanted to plan a "Tea" to which I said... alright, sounds nice. I don't want to be the center of attention. I don't want "a day for thisismynickname!"- and I don't want to inconvenience everyone with a shopping trip. But apparently, the fact that I'm not giving direction and declining this stuff is disappointing or frustrating people. ARGGGG.
(I must say, that as a reluctant planner, this site is super helpful. I love reading the forums to learn about do's and don'ts. So whatever I do reluctantly plan will at least be done right! So, thanks!)
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