So our wedding is about nine months away, and I'm really beginning to feel the pressure to lose weight. My fiance is a doll and always tells me how much he loves the way I look, etc., but I can't stop looking at pictures of skinny brides and being brought to tears. I love my dress and it makes me feel pretty confident, but I can't help but fear disappointment when we get our wedding pictures back. Despite all of this fear, I somehow feel "stuck." I feel like an effort to lose weight is futile (I have PCOS, so it's a vicious battle). Although I am a proportionate plus-size girl, 5'4" and 225 looks disgusting to me, even on paper. So now I'm stuck between days of weight-loss motivation and days where I feel that I will have to accept myself as a fat bride and try to move on. I know this was kind of rambling, but...am I alone in feeling this way?
Any thoughts/words of encouragement would be much appreciated, as I feel very alone in this struggle.