When I got engaged I chose my ladies with my heart instead of my head. I don't have any sisters or close cousins so I asked my best friend since practically grade school even though our lives have become complete opposite. I moved out of state for college, graduated, again moved and now have a successful career. She never left home, never got a job, had a child, and now does....well what does she do? Despite all that we have history, and we always agreed we would be each other's MOH. I made is clear to her I was not expecting typical MOH duties from her. I simply just wanted her to concentrate on saving money for her trip ( it's a destination...roughly $1200 for flight and hotel for about five days). I told her A YEAR AGO! since then she has not tried to get a job, save money, heck she hasn't even been there for me emotionally, for moral support, any planning, late night web surfing for decorations, let me vent when I was having breakdowns etching etc. I bought her dress for er, set it up to have her passport in time, and even offered to pay for half her hotel ($500). She never even took the offer! Now it's 8 weeks before my wedding day and she tells me she can't give me ad finite answer because she's still scraping money???? Then she wants me to invite an old guy friend of mine who she has never even met because he agreed to pay for her while they were chatting on facebook.
She even came to a shower my mom put on in my hometown six months ago and never brought a gift..not even a card.
I'm afraid I have too much self respect to have some one stand up there with me who I truly feel never prioritized me or the wedding.
I'm very torn because my heart still tells me I still need her there.....
When I confront her she turns it around on me!!! Saying I have ignored her and another BM because my third one is doing all the bachelorette work...well if the third one didn't I'm afraid I wouldn't even have a party!
Do I go with my heart or my gut?!?!