I've been in such an off mood lately. I've had a string of bad luck/sad occurrences and I just keep feeling so down.
A couple weeks ago I got a debilitating migraine that lasted for about 9 hours, and that same night I got a really bad grease burn on my boob (which is still healing and looks so nasty), which was then followed by UTI, which was immediately followed by a weird stomach thing, which was immediately followed by 3 solid days of a sinus headache that would not go away and really fucked with my vision.
The best man is being a major douche to FI and has been for a while now, so FI feels really bad about it, it makes me ragey on behalf of FI, and FI seriously regrets even asking this dude to be best man but he's stuck with the decision. Even he knows kicking someone out of the WP or demoting them is just way too wrong.
The hotel where we had rooms blocked for the entire wedding party, the bridal suite for my FI and I reserved, and rooms blocked for the guests is gone. No one told us. Apparently it was bought by some other company and they disconnected all the phone numbers, there's no way to reach anyone, and I can no longer find the hotel in internet searches. Now we have to pay to re-print all of the "accommodations" cards because I don't want to direct people to a hotel that no longer exists. I could skip the cards but there's other info on them the guests need. The venue is in a small town that doesn't have tons of hotels and our wedding weekend happens to coincide with the local college's graduation weekend. So several of the hotels are already booked solid. I contacted one yesterday and they would not do a block for me because it's such a busy weekend. There's no bridal suite or big enough room for the girls to get ready with me at any other place, and without being able to do a block and these hotels already selling out I am seriously concerned about where people are going to stay. The entire wedding party and 100% of the guests are out of town. Maybe 20% of the guests are within a short drive (about an hour or less). So... fuck.
I got a bill yesterday that I owe my therapist almost $300. I was under the impression that the sessions would be 100% covered by my insurance, but my insurance has decided that since I haven't met my deductible they will only cover SOME of the sessions, and I have to pay out of pocket for the others. I was not expecting this bill and money is tight right now thanks to wedding expenses and my student loan payments starting up post-grad school. To me that's a huge expense and I don't even know how to cover it without having to put it on my credit card, the balance of which I've been trying really hard to pay off and I'm failing. I'm so stressed about money. I hate it.
Also found out my dermatologist's office is closing this week. Their nearest branch is now an hour away, and I'm due for my 6 month skin cancer check (have to do it every 6 months because of a bad biopsy a few years ago). So it's not like I can avoid doing the check-up, but now i have to drive a total of 2 hours to do it and miss work.
Crazy bitch in my office won't stop harassing me about being invited to my wedding. Remember how I was gonna just shut her down the next time she brought it up? Well she fucking brought it up in a super crowded room full of all my coworkers plus a bunch of higher ups at someone's fucking RETIREMENT PARTY. She made a huge scene about it again. And I felt like I couldn't say "no one from work is invited" because the room was FULL OF MY COWORKERS. Now she's posting shit to my wall on facebook. I'm seriously gonna just reply to her post and tell her what's up. If she thinks it's cool to publicly nag me about it on social media then I think it's cool to publicly tell her she's not coming. And I think she knows she won't be invited because now she's trying to round up a group of my coworkers to "crash the wedding and make a scene." Who fucking says that?
Here's where it gets so much worse. One of my BMs hadn't RSVPd to my bachelorette party so the girl planning it asked if I could send her a quick text since she didn't have her contact info and didn't want to keep harassing her via email. I ask BM if she knows whether or not she'll be able to make it, and she's not sure yet because usually her mom babysits her son and now her mom can't babysit. Why? Because her mom's breast cancer came back and she's in chemo. Ugh. I feel so so so awful for this woman. Chemo is a fucking monster. And I feel so awful for the BM who has to see her mom go through this. I had no idea her mom was even sick. She hadn't told me yet because she was understandably having a hard time. Fuck cancer.
Then on Saturday, another close friend calls me to tell me that mutual close friend's mom had suddenly just died a few hours earlier. She wasn't sick, wasn't having health problems, was only in her 50s, and no one knows what happened. She was standing in her house and literally just dropped dead out of nowhere. I've talked to the friend and she's in complete shock-- of course. I'm so heart broken for her. How awful. I just keep thinking about her having to go through this and it makes me so sad. Her poor family.
I mention these two things last because the wedding bullshit and my very minor health crap really pales in comparison. But it just feels like a long string of bad luck capped off by two very sad, tragic things.
Anyway. It just seems to be piling up faster than I can handle trying to deal with it. So I've been feeling so down and just needed to whine it all out, all at the same time,cuz fuck. Knock it off, universe.