I'm not having BMs; my best friend is my only bridal party member and she is my MOH. We are super close and she knows all my family crap. My dad won't be attending the wedding and my mum is not well, so my MOH was going to walk down the aisle with me.
She is now pregnant and the due date is 10 days before the wedding. I'm a midwife and I know that realistically she is very unlikely to deliver on her due date but even with a fair wind, it's quite unlikely that she'll make it to the wedding as she'll either be quite overdue or have a tiny baby. She keeps saying that she will *definitely* be at the wedding standing next to me, which of course if she is able to attend, it would be wonderful for her to come in whatever capacity she feels she'd like to take (standing, sitting or whatever ha ha!). However I recognise that this is unlikely as my experience tells me that she will either be being induced/in labour/ recovering. I also recognise that no one has any responsibilities aside from turning up sober and on time. However she was really excited about getting ready together on the day and so was I, and I was also really glad that I would have my best friend there to support me.
I know it's not an option to replace members of the bridal party. I just feel a little lost now as I had not imagined standing up there on my own and now this looks very likely, I feel a bit worried about it. I'm staying at a hotel the night before the wedding and I feel a bit sad that I'll be getting up on my own, having breakfast on my own, getting ready alone and going to the church on my own. FI is having a huge grooms party and it honestly never bothered me as I was going to have my MOH and that was enough for me. I suppose now I'm going to be on my own I feel a bit silly and I don't know what I can do to make myself feel less anxious.
I am honestly totally thrilled for her and I can't wait for her to be a mother, she is the most amazing person and an incredible friend. I have obviously not discussed any of this with her and I wouldn't, I don't want to give the impression that I am not happy for her.
I know I'm putting myself out here for potential criticism as this post probably comes across as a bit 'poor me', I suppose I just need to get this off my chest as I don't want to drag this feeling around with me. I'm usually very Pollyanna about life and I'm sure I'll soon give myself a kick and a talking to. I know in the scheme of things it's not a big deal and the point of getting married is to get married, not to faff about with your friend getting ready ha ha! I just haven't got my head around doing this stuff on my own yet.