Hi all,
My immediate confession is that I've lurked here for a while. I'd really like to marry my boyfriend of 2 years, and we've discussed it abstractly ("Hey, you should marry me." "Uh-huh, ok.") We live together, have met each other's families, and make decisions together so this is not a big leap for me.
So wouldn't you know it, we finish watching season 2 of Game of Thrones and while I'm reeling, boyfriend looks at me and says, "You should show me what kind of ring you'd like." That was really exciting, and I was happy for to hear his declaration of interest in getting married. We exchanged ring ideas and even talked to a local jeweler.
Aha, but I am not engaged yet. Knowing some wisdom from you guys, I told boyfriend that if we decided together we would like to get married, then we're engaged, even without a ring. It's a little unromantic but I don't mind us deciding like adults sitting on a couch that we want to be together. He kind of pulled a face and said he's not thinking about it for a while, he wants to find a better job first. We recently polished up his resume but he hasn't applied anywhere yet, so I'm in for months of trying really hard not to think about engagements. I told him how disappointed I was, but that I want him to feel comfortable with where he's at, too.
It's funny how bummed I feel now, after two days of getting my hopes up. The boy does not understand how much I enjoy talking about the future, since for him the future feels more uncertain.
Please distract me. I'm a nurse with a pug and a love of animation and Star Trek. I think you guys can help me chase away the cray-cray.