This is my first marriage. This is his second. It's just going to be small, in our house and then to a restaurant for supper and then a backyard fire and some drinks (but I still have a dress and he's wearing formal wear). Mostly immediate family and a couple people for drinks after. We haven't told anyone yet except vendors. It's a small town and we don't want a big deal made, we've been living together for several years already.
But I feel like he's just not into it. I've been planning since the winter so we can take baby steps because I know his last marriage was a total disaster. I haven't made any decisions without his approval (except my dress and shoes and hair). It's basically been 'do you like this?' 'yep', 'do you want to do this?' 'sure'.
I'm almost 50. If this doesn't end up working out, I'm not getting married again. This is it. I want it to be fun and something we can plan together, but he's so hung up on his last marriage and his ex that I get nervous even talking to him about it because he gets so irritable and shuts down on me. Yesterday when we were looking at rings he said to the store owner in an angry voice 'I got talked into a lot of things I didn't want the last time around'. I haven't tried to talk him into anything. If anything, I'd really prefer more of his opinions. It's supposed to be our day.
We always have a really fun time doing anything and everything together and I want our wedding to be the same. I'm not sure how to approach the subject with him so he doesn't shut down on me.