I'm getting married in one year just to preface this. I was so thrilled the day I asked my son to be sister in law to be my Makd of honor (MOH), since we're having a more small wedding she would be my only Bridal party member, which I'm ok with. I asked her because I felt close to her and to me she's going to be my sister soon. However, she's also getting married (over a year from now), and guess who's not even a bridesmaid? Yep, me but she has 9 bridesmaids! Needless to say I'm very hurt, especially since she specified she only chose the last two because she's in their wedding. Mind you, I asked her to be my MOH a month prior to her announcing her bridal party at her engagement party.
So basically now I don't want her as my MOH,
I gave myself a month to think all this over and I'm just too hurt. Clearly she doesn't feel the same about our relationship as I do and now I don't feel close to her at all and I don't want to feel pressure to keep her as my MOH when I really don't want to. She hasn't paid for anything at all so no worries about financial loss for her, but I do have a feeling she's going to be mad (and probably her family too). However my fiancé agrees and he's very mad at his sister. He's in the wedding on her grooms side so he's mad that he will be stuck in the wedding party all night with one of her bridesmaids while I sit by myself somewhere. So what's the best way to have this conversation? Please don't try to talk me out of this, I've already made up my mind it's just now I need help on how to do it. I will not feel awkward on my wedding day by having someone as my MOH who I don't even feel close to.