Dear Prudence,
In February I had a manic episode and was hospitalized and diagnosed with bipolar disorder. During my mania I sent a colleague a romantic message (to which he sent a terse reply), followed by a couple of aggressive emails. While I was in the hospital I sent him messages apologizing for my behavior, and after I’d been out for a month, I sent him a letter. I haven’t heard from him at all.
I am torn because I don’t know how he feels. What can I do to forgive myself for my mania if he has no interest in forgiving me?
—Letting Go of Bipolar Behavior