Ok. I have been in Iraq for the past 6 months, and for the year before that my FI was in Iraq. We have seen each other for approximately 3 weeks since we've been engaged, and since he is now in OCS I won't see him until about 4 days before the wedding. (But it's ok, the one thing I'm not freaking out about is our relationship)
I have been wedding planning via internet and email with a lot of help from my parents, who have been doing a lot of legwork for me. I am stationed in England, and the wedding is in Connecticut. In two days I go home to CT for the first time since I started planning this thing, and I have to talk to all the vendors and hash out details. I haven't decided details. It's been hard enough getting the big stuff done long distance. I have little contact with FI right now due to his class, and contact from Iraq was difficult due to schedules and well, Iraq, so I have hardly any input from his end on certain things.
Every day my mom emails me with more things that need my attention. It just hit me that I need to change my name, but I won't even be in the US for very long after the wedding. Logistically at this point it'll be a near thing to even get the marriage license sorted out.
I am overwhelmed, frazzled, and totally freaking out, man. I'm not even sure what I'm asking for. Maybe just a hug.