Struggling with deployment.
So I am just hoping for some help. I feel like I have no one to talk with that will actually understand how I am feeling and what I am going through. I know almost if not all of you on here have gone or are going through what I am now. My FI got deployed we were going to get married in june but everything has changed with his deployment schedule. We have had to move the wedding up now to . I am so stressed with planning the wedding and with him being gone. It's not at all how we wanted this to go, but then again this is the military so you just have to get over it and move on with life. I guess i'm finding it hard because I have to make all the decisions and hope that he likes it all, and I am worried he is not going to like it.. I am also having a very hard time because my FI called me a few days ago and broke down on the phone, he told me how they lost a few guys on a mission, and how it was almost him, he went into great detail (wishing now he hadn't) about what had happened. Now I am spending every second of the day worrying about him. I cry whenever I am alone and wonder when I am going to hear from him again. I just want to go to Virginia and pick him up from the airport. I also seem to love to torture myself and have been listening to come home soon by shedaisy! I find myself getting edgy with friends who tell me how they miss their husbands or FI when they just had lunch with them earlier that day. Am I crazy or is this normal to get angry? I am sorry for this but I just needed to get this out and hopefully get some advice back. Thanks