I was married before for 3 years. My husband cheated on me before the ink was dry on our marriage certificate. Some of the women I knew about, others I did not. I didn't want to get divorced, so I lived with it. He finally left me for one of them. I've been divorced now for a little over 3 years.
After the divorce I was determined not to get hurt like that again, but then I met my fiance. I love him so much, and I trusted him at first, but then the doubts start coming in. I feel like I would be foolish to trust him 100% - I basically expect him to cheat. I'm so worried about it that it's brought on depression and anxiety, even made me think I'm not ready to get married again. He hasn't given me reason to think he's cheating, I just feel like he's going to.
I have talked to my fiance about this but I can tell he's getting tired of the topic, especially when he hasn't given me reason not to trust him.
I feel like I'm going crazy b/c I'm getting ready to go see my mom for Thanksgiving w/o my fiance & I'm totally freaked out that he's going to cheat while I'm gone.
Sorry so long, I really had to get that out...
Anyone know how I feel or have any advice?