Hi! I just joined here because of some recent discussion I have had with my boyfriend, but they really have got me thinking...
My BF and I have been discussing things a lot lately, especially with graduation looming around the corner (Spring 2014!). We have already discussed it and I know he wants to propose to me after we both graduate this year. I don't know when, or where, but at this point it seem like it will happen. He has even told me that I should just leave out pictures of rings I like around my apartment! But... the first thing is that I never expected to get get engaged/let alone married! All of my life, I was so against the idea. My parents have a terrible marriage and I have always thought that I would never want to be in a situation such as theirs, but at the same time I do love my BF. We have been dating for almost 1 1/2 years (writing it down, makes it seem like such a short time). I just feel so nervous now that things are getting serious. Now... I may be a bit young (21), but I will be 22 when we get engaged (expected engagement anyways :-P). And then he will be out of the country for a year, possibly 2 years. So the wedding would not be until I was probably 23 or older... It does feel a bit young.
I don't know... I love him to death, but I am starting to get nervous about such a commitment. Does this just sound like stress? Finishing up college, starting to apply to real jobs, friends panicking about "the real world" almost every time I talk to them... I want to just sit back and enjoy the ride! But... it is really hard to do this week when every conversation I seem to get into is about the future.
Sorry it was so long! :-)