Hi everyone,
I think I'm mostly writing this post to vent and to see if what I'm feeling is understandable. My sister and I are very close. She's a year younger and she got married about 2 years ago. I was her maid of honor. Even though it stung just a little for my younger sister to marry before me, I was thrilled for her and loved being her maid of honor. I recently got engaged 3 months ago and was very excited. I asked my sister to be my maid of honor since she's my best friend. I started having visions of planning together, the bachelorette party/shower, dress shopping, etc (all the things a girl would want her sister to be part of). It felt like I'd waited for this moment for a long time. Well just last week my mom told me that my sister is currently trying to get pregnant. I felt a mixture of emotions but mostly I felt hurt that my sister hadn't talked to me about it. When I talked to her she explained that she can't live her life based on others and that even though her pregnancy would occur during the year before my wedding, that it felt like the right time for her. To be honest, I can't help but feel a bit upset. I hate myself for sounding selfish but I feel that my sisters pregnancy will take away from my wedding a little. You see my sister has some medical issues so I know her pregnancy will likely cause some anxiety in the family. As it turns out, I found out my sister is pregnant and due in May. My wedding is in July. Of course when she told me I acted extremely happy and I am truly happy. I just can't help but feel a little bummed though. I know that my sis will be very preoccupied with her pregnancy and silly things like dress shopping or my bachelorette party etc might not be priorities for her. To be honest it's not that I'm worried about her fulfilling any sort of MOH responsibilities or anything, it's more that I feel as though she might have discussed this whole thing with me prior to going ahead and doing it. My wedding is only a year away... I guess I'm wondering why she couldn't just wait one more year to have a baby! She's young (27) and has so much time ahead of her. I really hope this post doesn't come across as selfish ... Just wanted to see if any of my feelings are justified. Of course I'm not sharing them with my sis and will continue to show her nothing but happiness. Thanks for any responses.