BF and I have been together for five long years and I don't want to go into details (hence the jinxing thing) but the only thing that keeps us from being technically engaged is the ring and proposal. Recently, I got some news that made me very happy about how things are progressing, and at this point the only thing stopping us from getting married would be some sort of major tragedy (hence why I'm so nervous).
I have anxiety problems to begin with, so all this waiting for him to propose, and hearing what he is doing about it, is driving me nuts (I keep worrying he will die tragically before doing it and then I'll lose him forever). He is going on a business trip to Miami soon which is making me EVEN more worried- I'm so terrified that Miami is a dangerous city and I can't help but feel like I'm going to cosmically cause his death by talking about getting engaged to my mother or friends.
I already told my mother some of my "good news" (stuff leading up to the proposal) but I don't want to tell anyone else. At the same time, I'm worried that my being so afraid of "jinxing" it will just set a bad precedent and make me really worried about ANYTHING leading up to the wedding itself, which is just madness!
Did any of you tell people about stuff leading up to the proposal, and did all hell break loose? Am I being irrational? I really want to revel in happiness, but I'm so wary of doing that when I'm not technically engaged and there's no ring on my finger.