I think I've written about vivid dreams before, but man, nine days out they're getting AWFUL. And they have a recurrent theme: Ghosts of Boyfriends Past.
A few nights ago I dreamt with a guy I dated right after my separation from my ex husband. I haven't even seen that guy in over two years. Well, that night I had this dream that we made plans to meet up in a public restaurant so that he could give me back a bag of my stuff with toiletries and other things I had supposedly left at his place (I NEVER went to his place so this makes no sense to me). When he handed me the bag we started making out and...I kinda liked it.
The following night I dreamt with my elementary/middle school crush (I liked this guy for about four years and the bastard never gave me a chance, although truth be told I was ugly as sin in middle school) and we saw each other and he gave me a foot rub, trying to "show" me what I would be missing out on if I married someone else.
And then last night I dreamt that I was in a train looking out the window in Coral Gables and the only thing I could focus on were the window displays of the bridal boutiques and with each passing boutique I would get more and more nervous to the point that I ended up texting FI to tell him that I couldn't go through with it...I cancelled the wedding!! I remember in my dream the day came and went and I was looking sadly at my wedding dress thinking to myself "I knew I would never get the chance to walk down an aisle."
Oh my goodness, and when I woke up I looked at my phone like NOOOOOOOOO! PLEASE tell me this was all a dream!! And I browsed through the text messages and realized it was all a dream.
What the hell is WRONG with me? Is this called cold feet?? Cause it's a little damned late for that! I'm almost afraid to go to bed tonight...who's going to show up next??