My MOH and I have been friends for a few years, she's been there for so much with me. But after moving in with my FI we began start growing apart. I would go out to my hometown whenever I could afford it (I'm working as a waitress). But anytime I would go out there I would feel like I was being pushed away. We had a mutal friend together, but the friend and I had a falling out after how flaky she was and how she treated me after awhile. MOH and I had a fight about her the mutal friend was treating us, but instead of trying to see it from both perspectives, she only seen it from the mutal friends. I let it go, we no longer hang out as a group.
But since then, I've been in my hometown a few times and she is now starting to flake on me. We don't talk about the wedding anymore and I'm not expecting her to be at my beck and call fo the whole wedding process. After my last visit out there I have invited her out to my place for a weekend, or even for a night, but she never wants to come out here, I always have to go there. She also just graduated college (I took a semester off to save money due to my job), and had invited me to her graduation party, but about 20 minutes after inviting me, asks 'The old mutal friend is going to be there, are you going to be okay? We can do our own thing." after I had flat out told her I would be fine. So basically disinvited me when I was going to take the day off of work and drive the two hours to go see her. Needless to say we fought again because of how I felt and that I was standing up to her about it.
After trying to explain to her what is it like for me out here, trying to get her to see from another point of view then the blinded view she is in, she tells me that if we fight again (mind you we have only had TWO fights the entire friendship) that she has to reconsider being my MOH. And since this last fight I've only heard from her three times, once to help her with a final project at school, and the other two because I contacted her.
Should I just cut my losses and get rid of the stress of wondering is she going to basically back out and move on? I know removing her from the WP will end the friendship, but I do not need any stress wondering if she's just going to walk out. I do not know what to do. I don't want to regret my WP years down the road, and I want a day of no drama...
I know I will probably get hacked to bits about this issue but I needed to vent and need some advice. So please, any advice before hacking me to bits about it...TIA