Today is one week exactly since we got engaged! I just joined The Knot today! He asked me at my cottage in the afternoon while we were reading on the back deck. It is a very sentimental spot to me because it's the exact spot where I spent a lot of time with my Dad who died five years ago. It was a gorgeous sunny afternoon and I was in a great mood just starting a new book with a great view of the beautiful lake.
I was totally shocked when he proposed. I really couldn't believe it. I kept thinking he was joking. It literally felt like I couldn't hear what he was saying because my thoughts were so loud and spinning. lol. It made me cry. Then we went back to the cottage and celebrated with a glass of champagne with my Grandma- yeah, my Grandma was there! My now fiance had snuck a bottle of champagne into his luggage. Then we got out our phones and starting calling our moms and family and sending out the word via texts and facebook to friends. I always thought that I wouldn't want to tell anyone right away, have some time for just us, but when it happened we really wanted to tell everyone right away and then just enjoy the bliss and not worry about telling people! I am finally starting to come down to earth and realize how real it was, but I couldn't stop thinking "I can't believe it!"
After almost seven years together in a very happy loving relationship, and living together for about 5 years, everyone including myself knew that this was bound to happen and he had let me know that it would be happening sometime this year. Everyone, (again including myself) felt like he was taking a really long time to propose! But, once he did it instantly felt absolutely perfect and I knew that the timing was perfect, the way he did it was perfect, and the amount of time we spent together before we became engaged just seemed so right for us. I wouldn't change a thing.
I have lurked on the Knot for years and thought about our future wedding LOTS- whenever I was bored I'd come on here and figure things out. But, now that I'm engaged, I'm surprised that I have hardly been on here at all! I used to flip through bridal magazines and dream, now I have some that my FMIL bought for me and I'm more tempted by my other non-bridal magazines! I think that I'm just basking in the glow of being engaged to him and I want to enjoy every minute and I don't want to start over planning or doing anything prematurely- and after all this time of figuring out every detail I want without consulting him too much- I now really want everything to be a true reflection of what both of us want in the timing that is right for us.
He seems so happy to call me his fiance and to talk about how we are getting married and he said that next week he wants to start checking out potential venues. I'm so excited. I'm pleased and surprised about how open-minded I feel and how all the details that always seemed so important now don't matter much at all. I'm just so thrilled to marry him! (He is a really wonderful person who is patient and kind-hearted, never critical or mean or judgmental of me or anyone else- plus incredibly intelligent and productive, fun to be around, and really good looking! LOL He's my best friend and beyond what I had dreamed of when I was younger.) Plus he's seen me at my worst and knows me better than anyone- better than I know myself- and that makes me feel great that my future husband has seen me at what I consider to be "my worst" and he still loves me and wants to marry me. I'm so inspired to be a great wife to him!
Anyway, I'm happy for everyone else who is also newly engaged. It was just awesome and beyond everything that I imagined. It was also pretty fun to hear my blackberry go off like a jukebox when we first put the news out and feel the love from everyone all at once. I can't wait to find out what it feels like on our wedding day.
"It's always better when we're together."
-Jack Johnson