This post doesn't have much of a point other than that I need to vent! This trip home to see my parents is the first time I've been home in a year. I pretty much come up with every excuse I can throughout the year not to come home any other time of the year. The reason? My mother. She has a horrible anger problem. Depending on what mood she's in the tinniest little thing can set her off and sometimes it doesn't take anything. She can never admit she was wrong, is incapable of accepting other people's views on things, and has been making horrible comments on my weight since high school. When she gets in one of her moods she storms around the house slamming shit, snapping at everyone, and being in general the most unpleasant person to be around. It was so bad when I was growing up that just hearing someone slam a cabinet will give me anxiety and I've had full on panic attacks when she decides to visit.
This trip was actually going pretty well until today. I ran to the store with my dad and we come back and for some unknown reasons she's in another one of her moods. So of course for the rest of the night everyone in my family will just try to avoid her. I honestly can't believe I agreed to spend my whole Christmas break (3 weeks) here. I felt bad for not seeing my dad in so long but I swear this is the absolute last year I ever visit for this long again.