So far this whole month has been kinda sad, were down to 86 days till the wedding and I truly am excited. But I cant help but have yhis sadness hanging over me. Today its really bad. When I think about our day im immediately reminded that the one person I always dreamed about being there wont be. My grandfather passed a year ago today and I miss him dearly, we were very close andhe was the person I looked up to most. And although I know my day will still be wonderful I feel like im missing out at least a little bit. And even though I miss him, I would not wish him back. His body had failed him and could not wish that on anyone, so for today im just sad.