My BF and I have been talking about marriage for a while and seriously talking about it for the past six months. Back in June, he went very traditional and asked my dad for my hand in marriage(so cute, it makes me giggle) and immediately afterwards told me about the conversation he had with my dad. He went to say that he was going to propose on Christmas when all the family is around.
So FML, I've been twiddling my thumbs since June just waiting for Christmas to roll around. Plus, I've told him several times that I'm stuck working Christmas and he doesn't get that hint.
In the mean time, I kind of feel like a jerk. He doesn't make much money, which doesn't bother me one bit, but he is stressing big time over the ring. I started off calm and collected and sent him some pics of some beautiful gem stone rings to show him that a good purchase doesn't have to cost thousands. Then *sigh*, I kept going. I'm obsessed. lol I started looking and every once in a while sending him pics of rings I really like. He'd see the price tag and freak and I'd reassure him that it was just a style idea and that, no, I def was not expecting something that fancy.
So, ya, I wish he would've kept this all a secret and surprised me with a proposal. I wouldn't be sitting here feeling like a crazed dog and I wouldn't be stressing him into one. I told him it doesn't matter what he gets. I give him ideas, but in the end, I really want something that he picks; it would mean so much more to me. When its all said and done, I'd be happy with a bread bag twist tie.
So...how the f*ck do I take a chill pill without in fact, taking chill pills? I'm already busy...I work full time and I already have three kids. This is always lingering in my mind, no matter what I'm doing. How do I ease this pre-engagement anxiety without losing the excitement? This is probably more of a vent than a dig for advice.