Hello all! This is my first post on the boards, but I'm having some trouble. I am about 9 days away from the "big day", and I'm having some nervousness/jitters. A little back-story here:
I got married the first time at 19 to a man who was abusive, both verbally and physically. We were married for two years, only one of which were we actually together...the other year we were separated. We finally divorced when I was 21 (which was April of 1996!), and I have not been married since. During that time, I dated quite a bit, and was engaged twice (neither time did things work out). I have also suffered from generalized anxiety disorder since my teenage years, and from depression since my mid-20's, so I KNEW the day would come when I would experience this. I am not losing sleep, but the nervousness that comes with the thought of losing "some" of my freedom I've had for the last 19 years is a bit scary (will be 42 in December). Upset stomach and not feeling hungry has been plaguing me for the last couple of days, and I know it will get worse next week as the wedding draws nearer (Nov. 7th!). I'm assuming this is at least somewhat normal? I'm ready to get married, and I'm marrying a man who is, truly, my best friend. The wedding itself isn't the issue, and I think I will be okay once the whole thing is over and done. Just looking for some guidance on how best to deal with the anxiety/nerves and what has helped others in the same boat.