I've been at my job now for just over three years. I used to love it, but I'm not so apathetic and resentful that it's making it hard to show up each day. I've realized that I'm not going to move up here and that the higher ups don't value me. I'm the only one here who does what I do. I should be managing a whole team of people who do what I do, but I don't.
What sucks the most is that I'm not the only one who feels this way but management isn't doing anything to stem the loss of personnel. One of the people I work closest with just announced he's leaving. Another great guy put in his two weeks today as well. And one of my closest colleagues is interviewing because like me, he's realized that he won't meet his career goals here either. For a long time, I felt like I couldn't leave because I'm the only person who does what I do and there's always so much turn around that I didn't want to leave my coworkers in that spot. Now I'm realizing that it is every man for himself and I need to get out before I end up drowning at this place, constantly picking up slack when people leave and just being un appreciated.
I just wish I had this realization three months from now! With the wedding coming up quick, last thing I want is the added stress of finding/starting a new job. Additionally, I finally worked my way up for three weeks of vacation here, which I'm using for my honeymoon. So now the wedding count down isn't just a wedding count down, but a count down to when I can start looking for a new job. The hardest thing now will be continuing to stay motivated and do my work when I can't stand being here.