I have slept for only 3 hours and I am wide awake. I go in to get the mole removed, today. It could be nothing, but I am terrified if it is something. It doesn't help that I have kept this from my twin sister. She is pregnant and I don't want to alarm her if I can avoid it. If it turns out to be something, I will have to tell her. I hope the doc will tell me he sees this sort of thing all of the time, and that a mole that has, now, quadrupled in size in three weeks does not necessarily mean cancer. A lot of other Knotties have helped me out and told me what it could be and it might not be cancer, and that has helped some. But I know I won't be able to sleep easy until the doctor tells me I have nothing to worry about.
*** update. Just got back from doctor's appt. One of the other Knotties who gave me advice was correct. My mole actually was never a mole, it was a piece of skin that was damaged from an injury and became infected. It developed it's own blood supply and became really sensitive. Doctor removed it and cauterized it. It still has to be sent to the lab, but he told me not to worry, I can, finally, get some sleep. I almost started crying when he told me it was okay. I was so overwhelmed with relief. So glad that huge burden was lifted from my shoulders. FI left me the sweetest card when I got home, today. In it, he wrote, "I may not tell you enough, but I am always here to support you.... whatever you are going through." I ALMOST CRIED AGAIN! Holy hormones... I may need to take a pregnancy test. Lol