I will preface this by saying that I know that I'm being dumb and probably a little insecure, but I just need to take a moment to just be kinda sad.
So, I come from a really large Lebanese extended family. I grew up going to family weddings of my dad's cousins all the time (my dad has probably 25 first cousins). We don't see each other all time, but big family events like Christmas, weddings, funerals- everyone is there. I always imagined and wanted my wedding to be a great big family affair. Our guest list was 326, but we had always planned around 225-250 (We could have accommodated and budgeted for all 326, but we just kind of figured we'd come in closer to 225). Anyway, this is the last week for RSVPs to be mailed in, and I'm just really surprised and saddened by the number of No's that we've gotten. Of course I know that it's a destination for a lot of OOT friends and family, weddings are expensive, people have priorities, etc, etc. But I guess I'm just really bummed by the number of people that can't come. At this point, I don't think we'll have even 200 people.
Which is fine....I know we can upgrade the bar and meal packages to meet the venue minimums. I'm just sad that so many people that I care about won't be able to make it. The whole thing has really gotten my mood down. I'm very touched by the number of people coming in from OOS to be there, and the number of our friends driving 4 hours to my hometown where the wedding will be. So among all the no's, there's a ton of hugely generous and excited people ready to witness our marriage. I should be focused on that, but it still kinda stinks.
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