I don't know why but tonight I have seemed to hit major crisis with only 4 months until the wedding. I realized that other then 1 person no one coming to my wedding is actually my friend, it is either family, parents friends or his friends. When my fiancé and I got together I was in a major party/get drunk/be a fool stage and when I realized I wanted to settle down I decided to let the 4am drunken party/making out with drummers/going to vegas on a whim stage was done, which I really had no problem letting go with and honestly haven't thought about it in 3 years since we have been together. However tonight I was realizing I wouldn't have anyone to calm my nerves before the wedding, no one to help me get dressed, no one to really hug after, no one to gossip with during the reception, nothing. Just a lot of polite hugs and thank you's. I guess I am just seeing if anyone else is in the same boat as me? I am marrying the man of my dream and would give up oxygen for but am a little sad that I don't have a maid of honor, no one to throw me an engagement or shower party, no one to get my nails done with. I have tried befriending his friends girlfriends/wives but it' s hard to really connect, my mother is doing her best but she is still my mother not a best friend and my sister is way to into her career to put much effort into my wedding. Anyone else out there feeling like the happiest day of their life may be the loneliest?