So lately, there has been a lot of discussion about the whole marriage thing. I am finding it exciting but strangely overwhelming. It started with “what’s our next step” because I currently live on my own, while he lives at home (but kind of in a mother in law home situation-not across the hall from his mom) anyway, it is very important to him for us to NOT live together before marriage. I have lived with boyfriends before, and to me, this is not a problem for me to accept his wishes. I didn’t end my previous relationships because of our living situation and although yes you do learn a lot about each other, with me living on my own, he is there all the time. Not to mention, I am not a picky person when it comes to living…I can handle dirty socks on the floor etc. SO for me, I am confused as to where we go from here. Although this sounds odd, I am a very goal minded person so for me, I always like to know there is a future, there is something we are working towards etc. From my personal experience, the next step is living together….so when you get rid of that what is next? So we agreed that from each of our stand points it is weird… so anyway he kind of threw out the whole marriage thing, but then we agreed it is too soon. But…only half heartedly. It was like a game of chicken we both wanted to say it isn’t too soon but we know realistically it is. In fact we were laughing the entire time. Then he points out my best friend who was engaged after like 8 months, and they are so happy. Then he pointed out his best friend who was also engaged after 8 months and said they are great too so why is it too soon?? (we’ve been together longer than 8 months). It was a great conversation. In any case…the next day…he said “so did you tell anyone about our conversation”. I said no….well of course I did. I told Grace- I tell her everything lol”. He said ya I knew you did. So I said so did you tell anyone? He said no but that he hadn’t really talked to anyone since then anyway, but that he was probably going to tell his BFF. Then couple days go by, and we are at his brother and sister in laws for dinner. His SIL and I go to pier one, and when we get back he asks me if I told her. I said no absolutely not, besides what is there to tell- that we had a serious conversation about our future? That would be weird lol. He said well, if you want to tell her you can…. I never did. I don’t feel it’s right yet- not to mention I don’t know what to tell her. Anyway kinda just venting- I wish I could see inside his head. I could certainly ask him, but then I feel like I would ruin the fun. I don’t need to KNOW everything…I am just letting it play out. Anyway, its fun.
August Siggy Challenge- The cake
