This is kind of a rant/kind of an "I'm feeling helpless"/kind of an AW
So, I've applied to FSU and am in the process of applying to UWF for shark research. In the case of UWF, I emailed the prof and asked him if he was accepting students, blah blah blah, and he told me he was on sabbatical next semester, not taking students until spring, but I should contact him then. I told him that wasn't going to fly, so he had me send him my stuff, and I had a phone interview on Friday. Well, he wants me in his lab, and despite being on sabbatical next semester, he's planning on pushing my application through committee as soon as it's in so that I can take classes in the fall - read, I GOT INTO GRAD SCHOOL!!!
Problemo: Base pay for TAs at UWF is $10,000. At FSU, it's $18,000. I visited FSU in the fall, clicked with the prof and his students (or so I thought), and put in a kick-ass application. I wasn't planning on hearing from FSU until next month, which is slowly creeping up, so I've been getting anxious. I got back from lab this morning, and found an email from them, saying my application had been unsuccessful. I'm crushed.
I have no idea what to do. I want to go to grad school, but I wanted it to be FSU. They're doing fieldwork, which is where I want to be. UWF all but flat out said no field work. I don't know what I did wrong. I sent both the prof and his students all thank you cards post-visit and kept my mouth shut after, not because I wasn't interested, but because I didn't want to be overbearing. I mean, I wasn't sure what to say in emails to him, and he didn't go out of his way to get in touch with me afterwards either. But his grad students said that he wouldn't waste his time to bring me down there if he didn't intend on taking me.
So, now what? Are rejection letters always hard and fast, or can they come back and say "Oh wait, we do have a place for you"? I'm losing my mind, and I really don't know what to do.