Why are we all having such terrible times with our jobs lately?? Well, here's my vent.
So because of our game schedule, I am unable to travel with the women's basketball team, as I have always done. We have games at home the same nights, and I just simply have to be here for those. My one intern is on the road with the team now, and started giving me SERIOUS attitude last night, over text message, because she had to set up some post-game interviews. She was having a major issue with the fact that someone was... uh, asking her to do her job? She told me that I needed to "get a grip" and thatt I should have been there, NOT her.
I had to take a minute to calm down when she said that so I didn’t just text back a “Are you SERIOUSLY talking to your boss like that?!” And I think that’s the main point of contention… I don’t really think that she respects me as “the boss” … I talked with our other intern about it last night, and he says that’s not the case – or at least HE doesn’t feel that way, but I’m not 100% convinced that I believe him either.
I do think part of it is my own fault – before my former boss announced he was leaving, I made no secret of the fact that I was looking for other jobs. I was – and have been – checked out & burned out of this job for a long time. When they named me interim, it wasn’t a question of “do you want this position?” it was just – here, this is yours now. So having to readjust my OWN mentality about what I need to do now is tough, and I also now feel like I have to convince the interns that I am here, in charge, for the duration.
I’m trying not to look too far ahead of myself, as far as if they’re going to offer me the permanent position, if I even want the permanent position, and even in the personal life side of things like where BF is going with his job (remember, he got a promotion at the same time, so he’s kind of in flux as well), what that means for us, etc. He has worked really hard to get where he is, and now he’s in a position where this could be his lifetime job… while I’m not convinced this IS what I want to do, so I’m willing to make a sacrifice and move with him somewhere. So there’s a lot of things going on in my head, that I kind of need to separate and deal with too.
I guess the bottom line is that we work in communications… so we have to be able to communicate effectively. But having first-year interns speak to me like that is NOT helping.
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