these issues may or may not be related.
a month before the wedding, I started a new BCP: Gianvi. immediately following the wedding, I gained about 6-8 lbs. it doesn't sound like much, but on my 4'10" frame it's at least an entire dress size.
since the wedding-ish (not exactly sure of the time frame, but certainly since getting married) I'm having a LOT of trouble sleeping. at first I thought it was just a new mattress... softer than what I'm used to. or the fact that H has started snoring. but I'm not sure anymore. I constantly feel tired and I can't get enough sleep. I never sleep all the way through the night. last night I got about 4 hours of sleep.
I've also been experiencing severe hunger. I should eat 1400-1600 cals a day. I aim for 1500, but I always surpass it by several hundred calories. I eat plenty of fiber, veggies, fruit, protein, good fat... I have a pretty great diet, for the most part. but I'm experiencing hunger so bad that my stomach cramps up.
I tried to tough it out last night, but by 11:30 I got up and had to eat something. I ate a slice of pot pie that my mom gave me, and then an hour later I was still starving so I ate a spoon of PB, some V8 fruit/veg juice, and some Quakers rice cake thins that are really good. not my proudest moment. and I just can't sleep.
I woke up and made a good breakfast for me and H. I diced a medium red potato and boiled it, then added it to sauteed onion/garlic/bell pepper/chiles and 3 eggs. I ate about 1/3, and I was starving. a couple hours later I had an orange. I'm eating lunch now (homemade marinara, 4 meatballs, 1 cup of roasted brussel sprouts, and 1/2-1 cup roasted red potatoes... and 1/2 cup homemade applesauce). that's a lot of food for lunch, but I'm still SO HUNGRY.
I try to exercise but I'm so tired, I'm lucky if I do it 3x a week. I get up at 5:30 in the mornings. my eyes are starting to look bloodshot constantly. I hardly ever drink any caffeine. I don't drink alcohol at all. I'm a pretty healthy person... I'd be great if I could just get enough energy to exercise a little more.
I don't know where to start or what to do. I know part of the hunger might be the lack of sleep. but I can't afford (time or money) to go back and forth to all kinds of doctors. I'm on the BMI line of OK and overweight. I want to fit into my clothes. I want to sleep. I don't want to constantly feel hungry and sleepy, and thus cranky and irritable.
any advice? anyone with a similar problem? any idea where to start? I feel like I'm crazy, or something is just WRONG with me, and I've got this crazy irrational fear that my doctor is just going to think I'm crazy. but I've been charting EVERYTHING I eat, when I exercise, and even when I binge (like last night). I don't want to switch BCP unless absolutely necessary because I went so crazy/depressed/anxious/paranoid the last time I switched BCPs (before this one). I like this one. it keeps my face pretty clear, I'm really not moody (except a little irritable the week before).
whew. so... am I crazy?