I hate doctors. I know they usually make you feel better, but I still hate it. I have hypothyroidism too and tend to get moody/easily overwhelmed when I forget to take my pills and so since I'm out and haven't gotten them refilled yet, I'm having an off day.
I have my urology visit tomorrow. It's a completely new hospital, new doctor, new everything. Usually FI makes me feel better before I go to these things, lol, but tonight I'm staying at my parents' house because it's only a 20 minute drive versus the hour and a half from our apartment. I won't have to miss as much work this way and then I'm hanging out with my mom tomorrow afterwards and going to see my grandparents.
That's a sad story in itself. I feel horrible that I haven't even seen them once this year yet. They're only in Ohio a few months out of the year and they spend the other months in Florida. My grandma is not doing as well anymore though. She's starting to forget things, forget names, forget what she said just five minutes ago. I called her this weekend to tell her about the engagement and that I'd stop by to see them this week before they go back to Florida and she got confused and told my uncle that we were getting married this week.
Also, my mom frustrated me with her lack of communication today. We've had plans to hang out tomorrow, but then then today we're talking about it and she forgets what we're doing and I end up feeling bad because I can't do things how she wants or it doesn't work out somehow. She also seems to think that, because I work from home, my hours don't mean as much. She's always trying to get me to take off work or take off early ... I can't ask her to do that, so why does she expect it from me? I've tried explaining the communication issues and my job to her several times, but she just doesn't seem to get it. I work full-time. Just because that is from home doesn't mean that I can do it whenever I want and just because I can't take off work, that doesn't mean I don't want to see her.
I'm starting to see why people always say that wedding planning is stressful. I haven't even started yet and I'm already feeling pulled in 3 directions trying to please everyone, lol. I am an only daughter and FI is an only child, so I want to make sure his mom is involved with stuff I'm doing since she won't get to experience that otherwise and I am trying to keep my mom happy so she doesn't feel left out, but still want to include my best friend in this too and then I don't want to make decisions without FI approving too. I guess I just need to figure out some kind of organization and also tell people to just chillax and not be in such a rush.
Key points: I forgot to take my pills, so I'm moody. My mom frustrates me sometimes, my grandma is losing her memory, people need to chillax with the wedding planning, and I don't wanna go to the doctor!
Sorry to be whiney, but it's late and I still have to work another 45 minutes and then get up to work at 5 am again. I don't even need people to read and write back; it just helps to get it out.
-Ely
