So, I got my Bar Exam results last Friday, and from the title of the post, you can probably guess, I didn't pass. I was seven scaled points from being an Esq. That's one actual point (I know, I did the math.) One more point on an essay, and I'm looking at a summer of fun with my BF and my friends. But as it stands I'm looking at a summer spent inside with my flashcards...
I am trying so hard to stay positve. I was so close, so I know that I CAN pass this test. But I feel so bad for BF because he he deserves better then to have to keep supporting me though this. I wanted to pass so that I could get a job and he could go back to school. I want to buy a house, and get married, and start a family. But all of that depends on my passing and getting a job.
It also doesn't help that my parents haven't really spoken to me since I got my results. They haven't called to see how I am, or to invite me over to dinner, or acted caring in any real way. In fact, my mom even asked if I was still going to walk at graduation next weekend. (my reply..."um yeah, the Ohio Supreme Court can't take my JD away. I still earned that...") Its hard not to feel like a failure when your family is treating you like one...
In conclusion, I want to thank you all for the good vibes in Feb, when I was studying/taking the Bar. I really could not have made it though that time without the good thought/prayers. I felt that I should give you ladies an update ( and I needed to vent...) Thank you again for all the thoughts/prayers.
