What is my problem?

nottheonlydreamer44

I'm really just writing this to vent a little bit because I do not know what is going on with me over the last few weeks. Lol. I'm just using the forum as my armchair therapy session for the moment.

I am in a terrible mood. Not all the time, just certain moments in the day. I feel kind of sick (like I took Benadryl and I'm out of it) and I could sleep about 17 hours a day, right now. I don't even want Mike to speak to me, text me, or even in my presence; I have no idea why.

I'm doing the bare minimum for Grad School and even planning a vacation in a month and a half, isn't making me happy whatsoever. It's stressing me out. Part of me wishes I would have accepted my old job back but the bigger part knows I made the right choice. 

Friends who I thought were good friends have shown me otherwise over the last couple of months and I feel like I'm a little, I don't know, lost? It's like I am depressed but I don't think that's possible with all the medication I take to alleviate just that.

Ugh, I just want to feel better. Hopefully something changes soon because nothing I am doing is working right now.

Elle1036

Sounds like a run-of-the-mill, everyone-goes-through-this-occasionally, slump.  You'll come out of it soon enough.

Offhand, though, are you getting enough exercise lately?  I tend to find that my slumps coincide with periods where I've been slacking on working out.  It's a vicious circle, too, because when you go through phases like that, exercise is the last thing you want to do, but it's what you most need to do.

Blue & White

Sounds like way too much stress for one person   So feel free to vent here.

As for the sleeping way too much thing, that could definitely be a sign of being on the "wrong" drugs for you.  So especially if you've just started on new meds or have been on meds a while.  Etc etc.

Exercise can help, but sometimes it stresses me out even more cause it takes that time away too.  I think we're all a little crazy sometimes.

nottheonlydreamer44

Thank you Elle,

Glad to know it's not just me although sometimes I am quite convinced that it is. I should be used to this little rollercoaster by now but for some reason I can't snap out of this one. To answer your question - no I haven't been getting enough exercise. I go to pole class and sweat my ass off every Saturday but that is about it. I need to get in the gym and get myself moving, you are right. Thank goodness I just set up a workout plan with my friend yesterday. We need to keep each other motivated. The vicious circle thing is definitely the truth! lol.

nottheonlydreamer44

Blue & White:

Honestly, the last 3 months have been the most unrelenting stress wise. It literally seems as though there isn't a single day where something isn't totally wrong. Big things. Most of which I have definitely vented here. Exercise sounds good to me but daunting at the same time.

LOL. Yes I think everyone has their moments of "crazy" it's just nice to know that honestly. I'm sure you know how isolating those feelings can be.

As for the meds, I think that is part of the problem for sure, even though I am reluctant to get on or off any of them (it's been a solid 8 months of treatment). I have such terrible drug rebounds coming off things and terrible side effects when I start them - I literally just want to stay on these because I can't imagine going through the pain/sickness again. Right now, I also don't have insurance (which sucks) and I get my 2 most expensive meds for free (thank God).

Tweaking them is going to cost me a fortune but I probably need to check into things. lol. Thank you!

Elle1036

I really need a friend to work out with, too!  Good for you guys!

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I have an exercise bike at home...not that it gets me motivated to get on it any more often, but at least I can just pull it out and watch TV while I'm riding it...and I find if it's a show I'm really in to, I find I forget about how long I've been on the bike...always feel better after I ride the bike.

Also, with the weather changing, SAD can take place...get some sunshine - go visit the Cinci Zoo - I loved that place when I took my nephew a couple years ago.  Find something totally mindless to do, where you're not planning anything, not doing anything with school, just doing something enjoyable.

HeartOverMind

I know how you feel, sorta. I was feeling so down last week. My job was stressing me out, BF was getting on my last nerves (and we were fighting), school is always on my mind, and I was on my period...everything was just bringing me down. I finally snapped out of my depressed state over the weekend. Me and BF spent some much needed quality time together...I magically felt soooo much better.

So maybe you'll feel better in a few days or so. Read a book and definitely exercise (I'm doing that tonight!) Do something fun! Maybe you just need some time alone. I hope you feel better!

purplepeopleeater11

Aww, I'm sorry dreamer.  I hate slumps like that.  They drive me crazy because I don't know why I'm feeling that way!

Usually if I exercise more and eat better they go away.  Being an old pre-med (and if there are any docs or med students feel free to shoot me down) lots of stress can make your adrenal gland go a little wonky.  Then you get tired, and grumpy and all around just blah.  It's called adrenal fatigue and if you've been under that much stress lately it's entirely possible!

nottheonlydreamer44

Thank all you ladies for being so helpful, encouraging and supportive! PPE I have never heard of adrenal gland failure but I will be looking it up now for sure! Honestly all I want is an answer and my mom keeps telling me to go to in endocrinologist and tell them I want everything checked on with my hormones. Again insurance would be nice! lol

I plan on getting in a workout tomorrow night no matter how tired I am - I have to do something just to try and motivate myself.

Lauren - I'm interested in knowing (if you don't mind telling) what drugs you're trying to come off of? No one believes me when I talk about Rebound syndrome not even my psychiatrist. It is hellacious enough to make me want to stay on them and just keep trucking. lol. If you're in Mid-PA I'm sure we can meet in the middle for lots of drinks. I need a state that supports Steelers fans

Margaritas for everyone!

loves2shop4shoes

Chin up Dreamer.  I've been down too.  Maybe there's something in the water.

*Hug*

loopy82

Maybe it has something to do with not working. Since I have been not working I am not really motivated to do a whole lot of anything. I used to be super motivated. Now, everything feels like a major chore. Unless of course its going out and having fun. Then I don't mind. I won't even go into  my feelings about job searching. Hope you start to feel better soon.

nottheonlydreamer44

Thanks Shoes! I am working hard on feeling better today -- Lauren I know exactly what you're talking about with the "zaps" it is the weirdest feeling in the world! I hate them and I get them even on meds. I've heard about bad rebounds coming off effexor so I hope prozac works for you!

I am struggling coming off of klonopins (I've tried to taper twice and go to none) but it makes me physically ill and my head feels weird as well.

Loopy, I do think a job is a big problem! Taking care of a baby all day isn't enough stimulation for me --- this furthur tells me that I couldn't be a stay at home mom. LOL.

I started looking through symptoms of PMDD and honestly I think that might be what's going on. I get this about 2 weeks out of the month and it is severe. With all my medication and then the introduction of massive hormones - I think it's hurting me. I could take YAZ (which I have) but it lessens the effectiveness of my meds and my meds lessen the effectiveness of the BC. Ugh. I cannot win.

Zinnecker09

Ugh!  I get the same way sometimes!  I feel so bad for my BF, too, because usually he hasn't done anything wrong, but he gets the brunt of it.  What I really hate about it is the fact that we are LD right now, so the time we do get to spend together should be fun - but lately, I've been grumpy, and it's made him feel like I'm not even interested in him anymore.  I hate that!   He always freaks out because he thinks he's supposed to be able to magically fix it, but can't.  Luckily, we are always able to talk through it and are able to enjoy our time together after...but it'd be nice if it didn't happen at all!

I definitely agree with loopy - I'm not working right now, either, and it makes every task I have to do that much harder - especially finding a job.  I have felt sooo unmotivated lately...BUT, I think I'm starting to come out of it (I hope!)...I just finished a paper for grad class which is a relief, and had a good cry with mom...so I'm feeling better...for now :P  I think mine may also be related to my period...I have HORRIBLE mood swings for about two weeks before and awful cramps...but I'm in the same boat - no insurance! :P

I try to work out or take a long walk most days of the week, or do something active and out of the house, but it helps for the length of time I do it, and then I'm cranky again

Anywho, good luck, ladies - I'm glad there is a whole team of us!