BF drives a truck for a living and has been on the raod for 2 weeks now. Usually he is gone for 5 days home for 2. I really treasure our weekends together as a family, and this time has been super stressful without him. I'm used to taking care of the baby alone, but I didn't realize how much I need those 2 days of help to function properly.
The baby has started waking me up twice a night because his little legs get stuck in his crib bars. Poor thing...He's also teeting which makes the days pretty lousy too. I wish I could just take the pain away for him, I give him tylenol if its really bad but I dont want to make it a habit. I have some baby orajel but he wont let me apply it properly. Sometimes I feel like I'm at my wits end....I know BF is doing this to pay for the ring and other nice things for birthdays and Christmas, but right now I would rather have him here than any shiney Christmas present.
To top it off, all my friends whom I made plans with this week have bailed on me at the last possible second, which is just rude IMO. ike the girl who said she would drive me to our friend's kid's party cancelled on me an hour before we were supposed to go. So I scrambled to find another ride. Then the girl who said she would pick me up on her way didnt and never called to tell me. When I finally called her she just said "oh yeah, we didn't have room, sorry" Which is fine, but at least call me to tell me so i'm not sitting at my door waiting for someone who isn't going to show up!!
I've beem making this huge effort to connect with all my friends, invite them over for dinner or coffee or whatever. Trying to maintain a social circle while staying home with my teething, fussing baby so I dont become a recluse. Everyone has their own stuff going on and I understand if they dont have time, but I hate it when people say they want to see me then break plans at the last minute. It happened with 4 different people this week, so I'm pretty upset about it.
I reached a breaking point yesterday, the only thing I could do to feel better was make Halloween cupcakes. Purple and orange icing, black and orange sprinkles on yummy chocolate cake. Instant happy 