I'm very worried about this most recent fight we had this weekend. I've made some previous posts lately about me getting into a marriage with an instant teenage son and my concern over alone time considering I have no kids. The recommendation from everyone is counseling, which I'm going to seek out. In the meantime, I sometimes feel like my relationship with my fiance is suffering. Here's what happened this weekend. And I know that my temper played a big part and my reactions were childish. I apologize for the long post. The three of us went out to the mall then out to eat Fri night. I bought dinner for all of us Fri night and asked my fiance could he get his and his son's lunch on Sat that I would be paying for my mom's. He said yes. I didn't mention anything about who would be paying for dinner on Sat night. Then Sat morning, the three of us and my mom left around 9am to go see my grandma and flower girl dress shop. My fiance and his son did their own thing while my cousin and I shopped. Well the four of us stopped for dinner Sat night on our way home. My mom paid for hers and my fiance paid for his and his son's. He didn't offer to pay for mine. I was hurt. Then my mom made a comment about how he didn't pay for my meal. I was really embarrassed. So I let this affect the rest of my night and I didn't speak for the rest of the way home. I dropped my mom off then took my fiance and his son to their place. Because we hadn't been able to talk privately all day or even kiss, I figured he would spend about 5 minutes or so with me in the car and tell his son he would be inside in a few minutes. Well, he didn't. He started to get out at the same time his son did, but he leaned over to "pop kiss" me. Because he didn't exert any effort to spend a few minutes alone with me, I turned my cheek. I know this was childish. Well he got pissed and slammed the door. I left and went home and texted him saying how I didn't appreciate how he acted that night. Well he said I acted the same way then he said goodnight. I texted him more but he didn't respond so I called him, but he had turned off his cell phone. I then called his home phone, but he didn't pick up. Sun morning, he responded to all my texts. I was still so hurt and angry from the night before that I told him to leave me alone that I didn't want to talk to him. Then I called him a bad name which was wrong for me to do. So I didn't hear from him all day. He went hiking with his son and son's boy scout troop, but I assumed he would let me know when he got back and that he would want to see me. Well he didn't. I texted him around 8 something last night and he finally responded an hour later. He said he didn't contact me because I had told him I didn't want to talk to him. So I admit I texted some mean things and I threatened to call off the wedding. Well he called me and was really mad and yelled at me. We talked it through, told each other I love you then hung up. This morning, he and his son had to drive 4 hours because his son had an orthodontic appointment. He texted me and told me he had left. I called him on my way to work but he wasn't in a good mood. That was the last time I've heard from him. Since I hadn't heard from him, I texted him around 2:30 this afternoon and asked if they were on their way back. He responded almost an hour later and said they had just left. So I asked if he was seeing his dad while he was there. He hasn't responded. I understand the no texting while you drive, but it looks like he could call me and talk to me. And this probably means I won't see him again tonight since he was just leaving a little while ago.
Is our relationship doomed? Is this normal to be happening? I'm so worried. Is everything my fault? Should we go ahead and seek counseling before the premarital counseling that starts next month? Or should we call off the wedding?
I'm so confused on what to do. My apologies for such a long post.