For the last few days I have been really depressed. Im mad at myself because I wanted to lose weight for the wedding. We had a year and 4 months worth of planning and I have worked 2-3 jobs almost the enoire time. Just recently I am down to 1 job and have had a ton more time on my hands. I should be excited that not only is everything almost fully paid for, but also because its getting so close. But i dont feel excited because the last year has gone by so fast and I now realize I didnt lose any weight. In fact I think I may have gained a few pounds instead due to all the stress. I went to my final dress fiting and it was a little tight and I could see back fat. I also looked at our engagement photos and could see a double chin in almost every photo. I know im my worst critic and they probably arent as bad as I think they are. Now I am so close to the date though and I just feel as if Im not going to look as good as I had imagined myself looking. Better yet I am worried that I am not going to look as good as my fiance (who has not wanted to hear about any of the details about what im wearing because he wants to see the final product walking towards him down the isle.) had imagined. I know I need to work out, but now that its so close I keep thinking "whynow when its so close? its not like it will help any!" and I dont want to feel like that. I just need some motivation. If anyone has any idea how to get some motivation please let me know. if anyone has gone through this or is going through this please please share your story. I dont want to feel like this anymore! I should be glowing with excitment and I just cant pull that out of me. Thank you in advance for your help!