My wedding is next Sunday- I feel like I am not ready - not like not ready to be married, but not ready with all the details that goes into a wedding. my budget doesnt allow for a coordinator, so i have done everything myself. I mean everything. My MOH hasn't helped me one bit, my sister's who are my BM try, but they are both full time college students and one is not only FT college student but also works 2 jobs, so I know they are busy. The thing is my MOH and my sisters all know that this has been somehting I have been waiting for a long time, and when I say a long time i mean over 10 years. My husband and I have been together 16 years , 3 kids , 2 mortgages, a few pets etc... and we are just now getting married.... I really feel sad, that they aren't more excited for me and involved especially my MOH - I mean she really hasnt helped at all...
maybe I am whining a little - even my bridal shower was "inconvenient" for her.
with the wedding only 8 days away........ and to top it off, the forecast calls for rain...
i am trying to remember that it's about celebrating the love of my life and the unity of my family... but i can't help but feel a little down over the "party" of it all.
thanks for reading..