I know I am being a pain with all my depressing crap and I thank you all with all my heart for listening and giving your advise. I am having a hard time GIS wise too as I am so preoccupied with the things going on in my life. I an still trying and have no intentions on giving up, the way I figure is that this is a lifestyle change and even a month of pizza and no working out is going to make me just quit trying to be healthy, I want to weigh myself but seriously can't handle the disappointment right now so I am going to hold off on that. Please send positive vibes my way. And to make things worst FI and I are fighting it is not really a big deal but with him everything is a big deal so this could be days. sigh,Thanx again chica. Anna I need to see you profile pic.