Y'all, I've finally figured it out.
I could not understand why now, when it's so critical, I can't stay motivated to count my calories, or watch my portions, or turn down cake. But clarity finally came to me in the mineral water jet tub in Hot Springs. After an hour of mild torture at a Civil War era spa I finally hit a moment of clarity. My great awakening: I'm stressed to the MAX!!!
I've realized that I'm juggling waaaaay too many responsibilities and somehow diet slipped down the priority list. I've been so stressed I couldn't deal with one more thing and I've just let go of all my hard work.
Now that I've figured this out, I've axed a lot of things on my "to do/worry about" list. I don't know how or when weed control in the lawn got higher on my priority list than looking and feeling amazing but I've got it straightened out now! S***! How do things like that even happen?!