holy guacamole... i sure picked some frisky females! my cousin is now pregnant. entirely different situation from my other friend, so at least i can be sincerely happy for her.
so, to update my last post, im not ousting any of my girls. i just went through a 12 day yoga teacher training intensive, with a short but truthful conclusion: i can do my best to bring joy to everyone i meet, but that doesnt mean everyone around me will do the same in return. its a harsh reality to digest, but it is what it is. i strive to be a good friend, and thats where i need to learn to draw my line. sure, its disheartening that none of my close girlfriends, the girls i grew up with, are enthusiastic at all in regard to my wedding, but truth is... im starting a new chapter of my life, not them. so once i move away, once i grow up... become a wife, and perhaps a mother later down the line, i won't be stuck in "want-to-have-fun" mode. im still gonna have my own fun, but i'm simply gonna reroute my energy. i shouldnt feel depressed about my wedding because my "friends" arent excited. i should be happy as hell because im marrying the sweetest, most amazing man ive ever met. and, really... that's all that matters 
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so... in conclusion, im gonna do my best to be all smiles from here. my fiance will be home in less than two months (YAY!), and we're going to be finally living the life we've been looking forward to since the day we first spoke about getting married . can't wait!