So I deleted the first post after feeling strange about venting on a message board, but rather than offend the board community I'll repost as closely as I can remember.
My mother has been an inconsistent presence in my life since forever. She doesn't understand why I'm opting to have a "big deal" ceremony/reception since it's my second wedding. (The first when I was 17 and pregnant, rushed to the alter and the marriage lasted less than two years). I've finally met the man of my dreams, and a man who my kids absolutely love; the man I have no doubt I will be with for the rest of my life.
I'm having a hard time now with the planning process because I feel like I'm missing something not having a mom to go dress shopping or to even chat with about ideas or plans.
I have a wonderful step mom, but we don't have that kind of bond. I know it might be silly to get upset over my mom yet again, but whatever pain she has caused seems to be coming on like new.
Anyone been here before, or going through it too?
**Sorry that the original post came across so badly. I wasn't trying to offend any one rather than just venting. And this has nothing to do with feeling like I'm missing something financially. It's an emotional thing.