So I feel lame writing this to strangers, but I don't want to talk to friends and FI is in class (an hour away) and not responding to my texts.
I posted before about my grandma's cancer and its basically just been a ridiculous roller coaster. This afternoon while she was at the hospital for her radiation they decided to admit her. Her blood sugar was very low, her blood pressure very low, liver enzymes sky high, bacterial infection, possibly septic.. etc. One of the doctors told my mom she might not make it through the night.
I really love my grandma, and am currently feeling crappy for all the snotty thing I've ever said to her, and I really do not want her to die. But I don't want her to be in pain anymore.
I don't even know what I want, I just needed to write this. Ugh.