So I've been thinking about this all day, so maybe this vent post will help clear my mind. So before FI and I got together he had this job that he loved, he was gone all the time pumping cow poop ( I know sounds sooo gross) the money is great and after they got done or when they get rained out all they do is party and go to bars. Its the perfect job for a single guy.
Well when we got together he quit so he could be home. He took a job with less money (here all the jobs with money require you to be gone all the time) and at first it was fine. Well even tho I got a job, ends are just not meeting. With all the our regluar bills, money for wedding (My grandparents are paying for most but we like to throw in so much money a month to help out) and doctor bills because I broke my back this winter money is really really tight.
Well about a week ago now his old boss called and offered him his old job back. He was thinking about it all week. He would be gone all spring unless they get rained out, summer one week a month he would be gone, all fall he would be gone besides 12 hours on Sunday then 3 weeks off and then he works in winter but is home every night and has weekends off. At first I told him to take it, the money is triple what he makes now. Now I don't know if its the reality of it settling it or what, but I'm getting a little worried.
I trust my FI, I trust him to go out to the bars and have a good time. Im worried about him being gone ALL the time. What if im not okay with it? I cant ask him to quit we need the money and he loves it. He already quit once because of me. I hate being home alone and now im going to be home alone all the time. Its going to be so hard for me and I know him too. When he is gone we are hardly ever going to be able to talk, he is going to be sitting in a tractor for days with no sleep. When he comes home on Sunday all he's going to want to do is sleep. We have never been apart for longer then a week and now we are never going to see eachother. So idk but any advice on how to make this any easier on the both of us? I know i'll get used to it but in the meantime its going to suck. I feel like an idoit, I told him to take the job and now I want him to back out of it.