I have been thinking about this for awhile but looking for some input. Last night FI and I had a tiff about my bridesmaids, or lack thereof. I don't really have any close female friends that I could ask to be BM's. I also really wanted my sister to be my MOH. However, she is not really that interested in hearing me talk about my wedding right now and I don't feel comfortable asking her. FI has like 4 GM's already and has already secured his best man. I feel like he's pressuring me to have BM's when really, I just can't imagine asking people to do it for appearances. I think being a BM is for those women who are close to you and I just don't have anyone in my life like that. I told FI that he can have his GM's, and I am fine being up there by myself. He just will not let it go.
I think this is upsetting me more because it's making me realize that I don't have friends but it's been this way for most of my life. I have a lot of associates, but no real friends. I'm not sure what direction to go at this point. Any suggestions?