Yall..I am having such mixed emotions. On the one hand, I'm marrying the love of my life in SIX days. I'm here in Cali with my fam and friends I haven't seen in forever. I don't know if you all read the post I posted about a week ago but I had a friend that was in the ICU. I found out today that he passed away and I am sooooo heartbroken. I know that God is in control of EVERYTHING and if it was His will to call him home then I cannot question it but I'm just soooo heartbroken. I spend one minute smiling about the wedding and the next minute I'm bawling. I feel like someone who is BIPOLAR. FI is so concerned about me and i'm trying to assure him that I'm going to be okay. This is crazy.