So my "best friend" of 17 years was supposed to be my MOH. We have been having our issues lately, but nothing to this point, or so I thought. I had the feeling she didn't want to be involved anymore, so I asked her flat out: Do you want to be my MOH still? She told me no. I am so heart broken. This is almost as bad as the groom not showing up to me. She has always been there for me. Just today I asked if she wanted to be there period. She still hasn't answered me. I don't know what to do. I feel like...like...deflated. She was the one person I always thought I could depend on. My fiance doesn't seem to understand. He thinks we will "just make up". This is worse than any argument we've ever had. She says we "grew apart". I don't feel that way. What's even more depressing is, she was the ONLY person in my entire wedding party. I don't have many friends. I have always been socially awkward. The people I do socialize with, aren't people I would want in my wedding. My elder sister has pretty much disowned the family, and my younger has no interest in being in the party at all.
I haven't done any planning because the more I think of it, the more depressed I get. I love my fiance and I want to be happy for him, but it so hard when everyone you thought would always be there, left. I just really need a friend.
(it's still a work in progress)