Can we take a look at my month so far?
March 1st, day off from work, so I go see my mom because she is having a tough time that I moved out..over a year ago lol with my fiancé and we bought a house. When I'm there she tells me that my dad's coming home...his job is done in Nevada and he’s driving home as we speak. He’s not going to another job because he has doctor appointments lined up for his heart - How Fantastic. I don't think my parents will be able to help us at all with the wedding. My mom and I go to the bridal shop to try on some dresses and new ones that came in...I still can't make a choice..nor the money. and just the sound of my phone and text thinking that its my mother gives me actual anxiety..like heart racing and pure panic because she treats me like a 5yr old doesn't like my fiancé because he treats me like an adult..and thats just a whole other story.
March 2nd...i lost my job. While my fiancé was coming home that night from being away for a few days on business...o ya and by the way March 6..HAPPY 3 years babe! lets have a nice romantic hotel stay for our anniversary and i just lost my job. Ohh!! thank you for my real Chanel sunglasses that you got for me while you were away..I'm sorry you need to return these so you can pay for groceries! and i have no health insurance.
March 9th, got a phone interview..o thank you lord! The past week I was on the phone with my one friend day in and day out updating my resume and online 24/7 looking at 7 different job sites...no joke..just refreshing the page every 20 seconds. Finally told my parents that night because they give me anxiety and feel like a failure in their eyes.
Have I mentioned that the house is a diaster..you would think that with no job you would do all these things that you never have time to do...like the laundry and cleaning and cooking from scratch..no, you just sit in the corner of the couch on the computer obsessing over emails and job sites and "linked in.com" has become the new facebook. In the mean time I had my fiance write an email to our venue and say "I'm sorry, we're having a personal issue so we can't give you a deposit...please hold our date!" I have nothing going for the wedding yet...
March 11th, I got the job! I don't start till March 16th... o we have like 3000 of bills due for March...good thing i save money.
March 14th my fiancé has a mini breakdown...stress from work..me not working...and his been going to the gym every day and a trainer and no results because he is so stressed and feels that he is failing at everything...even me because he started putting numbers together for the wedding and doesn't know the first thing to do and he wants me to have everything that i want for the wedding. He thought a honeymoon to Europe was going to cost 5000...ya for plane tickets and one night stay at a 3 star hotel.
March 17th, had my first day yesterday...can we say crazy town?
DId I tell you that I'm a little stressed and just don't know what to do first? How do all of you get things together? how do your houses look? lol I would just like to know any special tips that help you keep everything together?