Perhaps I need to put this in a place where other people with similar issues might read it and just get it out to be able to move on. As The Knot reminded me just a moment ago my wedding is in 79 days. May 14th 2011. I have been with my FH for over 5 years and during that time I have become close with his family. We aren't really comfortable being the center of attention in high pressure situations. That's how I know we couldn't be president! So our wedding is going to be very small and it hasn't been planned out 100% to the "T". We wanted something small and comfortable where a select few family members could share the day with us. I always thought that as we got closer it would fall into place or I would come through in the clutch like usual. (Not to mention we are broke!) So with the support of our families and a pretty well designed back yard we knew it wasn't going to take much more to make the day special. Unfortunately the universe decided to toss us a curve ball. Last week my FFIL passed away after a battle with cancer. It has been very hard on both my FH and I as I already loved him as my father. ( I always joked and told him that I was his favorite!) So now our wedding is lost in the shuffle of life and death. As I mourn the loss of a great man I also stress over the details of our big day and feel the emptiness of his absence. I just don't know what to do. We would elope but my family would not forgive me and my FMIL would be upset over not seeing her son get married. I just feel lost and I don't know where to start. Thanks for taking the time to read this.