This is my very first post, ever, which tells me that yes, I am indeed freaking out - and I simply need to get this off my chest or someone will meet with an unfortunate accident.
My wedding is 3.5 weeks away, and I feel like the best thing I could do right now for everybody concerned is to get into my car, head out onto the highway, and hit the gas. And not come back. I am questioning everything - well, the only thing that I am not questioning is my love for my FH, but everything else is one huge "what if". What if I'm not the right person for him? What if we're making the biggest mistake in our lives? What if our guests will be disappointed? What if I should re-think the whole colors/flowers/dress? On and on, you get the picture.
We're doing pretty much everything ourselves, and we've had such a blast planning all this together, but all of sudden I'm starting to get stressed out. And I want my mommy - my family lives in Europe and are unable to travel, but we'll see them later, but the fact that I can't talk to my mom or my sisters face-to-face is making me cry all of a sudden. Me, the Queen of cool and Mistress of matter-of-fact. I'm very comfortable with my FH's family, but it's not the same.
Thanks for listening - and any advice, sage or not, is more than welcome.
Queen of cold feet and Mistress of miserable